Greetings everyone,
A new school year has begun and students are being awakened from the harsh reality that summer is at its end. It’s hard to believe I’m entering into my final year of university. This year I’ve taken a crazy student approach and signed up for six courses. I decided I wanted to see what Maritime Christian College has to offer and stumbled upon their Romans course. Although I’m putting myself through extra stress and staying up late to finish my readings, it has been the best choice I’ve ever made. Every day God is opening my eyes to new truth.
Last night I was reading Romans 1. It talked about the Gentiles and how they traded God’s truth for their sinful desires. I thought “Isn’t that like society?” If we take a look around we can see the depravity of man by looking at any magazine, novel or movie. People are doing what they want and as long as they’re not hurting anyone it’s okay. I was frustrated because it seems like they’re not receiving any consequences from it.
Romans 1:17 says “The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them because God has made it plain to them.”
I said “Yeah! Finally the sinful generation is going to get what they deserve!”
Paul mentioned sexual immorality, homosexuality and promiscuity. I never did any of those things so I thought pretty highly of myself. God’s angry wrath wasn’t going to be poured out over me.
But then I came across a verse that made me stop in my proud tirade.
“They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent and arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil, they disobey their parents…”
It felt like I had been stabbed in the chest. I had just been insolent, arrogant and boastful all at the same time. I knew deep down they were sins just like murder and sexual immorality. I’ve disobeyed my parents, been jealous of someone else and not only listened to gossip, but spread it.
I was a sinner like them.
My eyes wandered to the next verse. “Although they knew God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.”
I was hit by the weight of my hypocrisy. Here I was judging others for their sin when I was included in that list. Not only that, but I’ve read the Bible and I’m without excuse because I know what I’m not supposed to do. I stopped my reading and I poured out my guilt to God, exposing my proud heart.
There’s nothing like the refreshing water of God’s forgiveness that washed over me that night. It was almost as comforting as when I first gave my heart to Christ. I’m thankful that God made a way to rescue us from ourselves and all the burning desires within us. Anyone who is feeling condemned can receive the same forgiveness just by asking God for it. He sent his perfect Son to take our place and receive the punishment for our wrongdoing.
But one thing I realized was that repentance isn’t enough. I have to give my selfish pride to God every day or it will continue to consume me.
That was only the first chapter of Romans. I can’t wait to see what I’ll learn from the rest of it!
Keep walking in faith,
Sarah